ShopDreamUp AI ArtDreamUp
Deviation Actions
Literature Text
it's always the last week of november when i'm making up statistics to say how awfully uncomprehensible i am. and it's always at exactly a quarter to eleven when i'm writing about nothing except for the vomit in your eyes or the blood in your mouth or another cliche of how pissed off/upset/overdramatic
- i am not in love, and i am not dressing corpses in your clothes, and i am not in love, and i am not lying to 500 strangers right now, and i am not in love, and i am not pretending that the sweat in your hair or the vomit on your skin or the blood on our tongues is anything other than some absurd metaphor for fuck you. fuck you. Fuck you, because i've been stuffing stockings with christmas lists three weeks early to get the only present i want/need/despise, which just so happens to be in the future, and i need a time machine just to visit it, because i really just want to
tell you.
- see you.
- Fuck you,
- because i've been stuffing Death for the last three hours with cotton and fluff, then sprinkling it with glitter – fucking glitter! so it doesn't smell at least half as bad as the morgue of dead skin cells and rotting flesh stink you were hired at last week because you fit right in with all the other cadavers that don't give a shit about the living, breathing trainwreck poets like me, and and and, i will change my locks twelve times before we die, even though you've never even been to my house, because let's face it: i am nothing to you, no matter how many hearses it takes to sneak me into someone else's funeral. and i have to eat eight million and twelve more carcinogens before next month, you know, and bathe in my sanity wearing a plethora of autopsy sweaters,
- because this year, winter is hotter than two million and three degrees, lonelier than two million and three coffins, faker than two million and three wishing wells, uglier than two million and three unread/unwritten/unthought eulogies,
- and, and, and i'm running out of ways to say the same thing disguised as something new in order to impress the critics and cynics because they all remind me of how cynical and critical you are so i'm just going to have to pretend i know what the hell i'm talking about,
- even though you're the only one i'd rather pretend-to-talk to. but in case you haven't checked your gregorian calendar this decade, it's the last week of november and i'm still not in love.
Literature
tragedies - collab.
you deserve all the cobweb dreams,
fairytale hopes, and explosive love
in the world, but i know that i
will never be the one
to give them to you.
you need notes that end with
'ps - you're brighter than
twenty-seven silver stars'.
i can't bring myself
to write them, though.
it's not like you'd read them,
anyway.
i cut out paper hearts and
dreams and gave them to you, but
you only ripped them up and said
'these aren't good enough.'
when i painted you a picture
of golden skies and sunshine smiles,
you handed it back and told me
'next time, paint realistically.'
so i wrote you a story
filled of starless nights and
hopeless d
Literature
midnight.
it is midnight and the clocks are chiming in the almost-silence. the sky feels like rain and somewhere, some girl is dancing and laughing and smiling, but she's certainly not me.
our hearts are cold. they've been sleeping, curled into themselves for too long without a blanket or a pillow or a smile to fall back on. it's midnight and the sky feels like rain and there's going to be a storm later,
but it won't match the storms inside, that's for sure.
we are biting our nails, smiling and pretending nothing is wrong and saying, yes, darling, i'll get rid of this horrible habit in the morning. it'll all be better tomorrow,
except it's midnight
Literature
bromide and other nonchemicals
shes empty mouthed.
she cant explain but its like that pins and needles feeling except in her heart. its like she could have said twelve thousand and four different things and she picked the wrong one. its the way shes no good with words except she tries forcing her ideas into verses and stanzas and neatly packaged displays of her individualism. so its as if shes set up an exhibit in her mind, complete with glass windows for people to press their handprints into, staining her already disheveled head with traces of themselves. shes empty mouthed since she just realized that not a single bi
Suggested Collections
i'm an artisan making snowflakes out of ashes.
© 2009 - 2024 ChloroformBoy
Comments162
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
this is really something! i like it!