dissolve my skin and bones and life and everything

my nerve endings hate
me i wish i was numb,
completely
i mean in completely
i mean
fuck it,
im spazzzzing
lets try again-

my nerve endings hate
my physical body
and i cant say i blame
them i mean sometimes
i mean all the times
my skin strangles
my intestines
i mean my organs
i mean i'm too hyper
sensitive to contain

i mean neurotic

i mean cracked
teeth and cracked
hands and cracks
inside my head
probably
i mean it's hot and i can't even takeabreath

pause

extract my whole existence
kill it cut it yank it decayed
stuff it with anxiety attacks
suffocate on dream bubbles
choking on the past choked
the future will choke on me
i mean the future will choke
me to death dead died dying
life takes forever i can only imagine how longggggg death is it seems so never-ending

i mean nerve-endings
hate me i mean i dont even know
what i mean anymore