out of service, out of clothes

not so fun fact #1:
     my heart is not fluent in Bullshit.
     this is why i feel:  disconnected.
     dejected. rejected. unexpected.
     press 2 for Amnesia; 3 for Truth.
     sorry the number you reached is
     in hiding.   in flames.  in love.  in
     visible. in America, not Fakeville.
     please recheck your information,
     and dial again. and again. again.
     hang up.   tear up the power bill.
     slam your phone in the wall. four
     calls to me is four calls too many.


not so fun fact #2:
it's the first time we've spoken in
days.          weeks.        months.
indirect communication; this is so
normal.      expected.       typical.
no eye contact; body language is
too much. not enough. imaginary.
i have since forgotten about your
name.  phone number.  last exes.
birthplace.  point of origin.   point.
i have since forgotten why i loved
your smile.  your laugh.  your hair.
your voice.  your skin. your teeth.
your curves, your wit, your desire,
your love. you're love; you're love
less.      ly.       d, but not by me.

not so fun fact #3:
okay, so maybe i'm just lying again.
so maybe i still remember your face.
maybe i still dream about your body
on its side. on my mattress.  on me.
so maybe i still care. so maybe i still
love you.       hate you.   envy you.
lust you. think about you. want you.
want you to call my phone.
want you to call my name.
want you to call me Yours.